Forgiveness

"Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong"

Mahatma Gandhi ..

I believe that is very much the truth.. Many people just look at the surface of it..
What Gandhi actually meant was, only weak people who are afraid to be hurt again are the ones that cant forgive.. Because it takes a huge amount of strength (mentally) to actually forgive someone for the mistakes that has happened.

I have been plagued with problems for the past week or so.. Everything seems to be out of order and I have been suffering too... I personally hate it when someone misunderstands me.. Ever since I was a kid, I absolutely hated it when I get blamed for something that I didnt do..

I am not a saint who takes blame for others for no reason.. I am a normal human being too.. Having said that, many people forget the fact that I also do in fact have something called FEELINGS.. I dont know what has gotten into their mind.. They simply assume that I am mad/angry/sad/etc etc.. While the fact is, I was simply, NORMAL.. I didnt have any reason to be happy, or sad..

Maybe its just the way how I look when I'm normal.. Most people think I'm either snobbish or angry/upset when I am just normal... Im not crazy to walk around with a pointless smile on my face.. Sure thing I do smile at people... That doesnt mean I have to do so to everyone all the time.. Lol... Come on.. Be practical..

Well... I dont really care if you ASSUME that Im mad/sad till you wanna ignore me.. I just hope you dont leave an impression that you just look for me when you need something.. I forgive people very quickly, as I find it hard to keep vengeance in my heart.. Im not the type of person who tries to seek revenge.. Please.. I am NOT.. I wasnt raised that way either..

Personally, I dont force people.. I try my best to convince them, but if after all the talking and they still choose not to trust me.. I'll just leave it. To me, its pointless to spend so much trying to convince someone who doesnt trust you..

I found a quote from Gandhi Ji that truly opened my eyes that I would like to share.. I hope it opens your eyes too (All readers, not anyone specific please.. Lol )

"Whenever you have truth it must be given with love, or the message and the messenger will be rejected"
~Mahatma Gandhi~

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Shrouded Clouds

I cant believe what has been going on.. Certain things that i see as personal, has been somewhat intruded by certain individuals..

I have no clue whatsoever if they were based on good intentions or the opposite.. I'd like to believe its on a good intention though.. However, with that said, I still think that these kind of personal matters that involves myself, should not be discussed with anyone with my acknowledgment..

I already have a complicated and twisted personal life, and the last thing I would need is for someone to come and make things even more difficult than they already are..

People, PLEASE,if you're going to talk about something that is related to me, especially personally, come and ask me first.. If you go around acting as if you know everything, its my name thats getting spoiled here.. not yours..

(I'm not writing this in anger or whatsoever, I appreciate that you all care, but let me handle my own private life, PLEASE.. I'll let you know if i need your help)

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Why'd You Lie?

I dont understand why you'd lie to me! From the very beginning i asked you a simple question..
And you said "NO" for an answer.. And i trusted you wholly.. I seriously did..

And I was happy to hear that you said NO.. But when the situation came, you could have broke your silence and spill the beans about the truth.. But you didn't.. In fact, you gave me false hope! You made me wonder! You made me think everything was possible!

But, as I should have known.. Girls are never to be trusted! They cheat! They lie! And they take what they want! You just have proven to me that you are no different then most people I know! Liar! Cheater! Selfish! And even when you know I've heard of the truth.. You didnt take the effort to explain the situation to me!

This very friendship begun with the LIE that you told.. Which I've already TOLD you.. I HATE PEOPLE LYING TO ME UNNECESSARILY!!! I thought that you were different than any person I know.. I shall never forgive you for lying to me and making me look like a fool when I heard the truth.. You shall not play any significance in my life anymore!

I hope god forgives you for the lies you've told!

Typical Undergraduate!

Assignments and university students are inseparable, obviously. But, what do we do when we are given assignments that are ridiculously tough or meaningless to do where it doesnt benefit the student intellectually?? Dear lecturers.. Please understand that your students are not only taking your subject for the whole semester.. There is a whole load of other assignments that are needed to be completed. So, please do understand if there is minor mistakes..

I couldnt believe myself when I saw my Elementary Statistics marks.. I actually passed! And most of all, scored above average compared to the class.. I cant be more proud of myself.. Mathematics and myself were sworn nemesis since birth.. I couldnt even remember my multiplication table up to today.. :D

Guys.. Learn from your lessons.. Never procrastinate when you have assignments! :) <3

Terriying Tsunami

As we know, Japan was hit by massive tsunamis and the entire world was shocked by it..
I was writing my exams when the news began spreading.. My heartfelt condolences goes out to those families affected by the disaster.

Lets hope that the nation rises back t its feet as soon as possible.

There was SMS-es that was spreading like wild fire that claimed, that the rain now carries radioactive particles and we should stay away from getting wet during rain. Well, so far, the news has been dismissed by the Deputy Prime Minister, just as i thought.
Stop spreading rumors people! The situation is already bad as it is..

Im praying for the betterment of the Japanese.. God Bless.. <3

Alone!

Its been more than a semester now I've been here.. I cant say that i hate the university nor the environment here.. Its such a getaway from all the hustle n bustle of the city that I live in. Its much more greener here, fresher air, and more relaxing environment all in all.. However, I still dont feel comfortable here. Why is that so??

I cant seem to understand how people's thinking here works. Certain people seems to be smiling and laughing ever so friendly in front of you but behind your back, they started to show their true color. I dont understand what do they really want from me.. What do they want from me actually?

I'm only sought after when Im able to help them in their duties or work. Whenever during leisure, I seem to be the one ignored. What am I? A robot able to compute answers when Im required to and ignored when the task is completed? I havent seen a single person who has turned to me to do something fun or to involve in something just silly enough to have a good time.

It has been extremely frustrating to think that i have another 2 more years to go with this bunch. I do appreciate them for whom they are, but personally, I havent found anyone whom Im able to joke, hang-out and have a good time with. It has only been Facebook and I.. Or the computer in general. Such a shame to think of that Im going to spend 3 years without someone worthy of keeping fond memories off.



I hate to be alone, and most of the time, I am alone, and I dont see that changing in anytime soon. I just wish I could be back in my hometown where I can meet some of my REAL friends. Im thinking of 1 specific person as I'm writing this. I just hope I could be around with you right now. I know you're going through a very hard time now, but I just want to be there to lend a shoulder to lean on.

I hope another 2 years just flies by. It doesnt really matters to me if Im ignored for another 2 years. It has been a common thing. Those who did not have the opportunity to know me well, I pity them.. I think Im a decent enough person. I dont care if you think Im praising myself right now. But I know myself better than any of you do..